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It’s taken me a few weeks to feel like I can write this post without falling apart. It’s been a long few weeks and I am still struggling with it a bit. As many of you know, we decided to do one more round of IVF. It took me a few months to even be…

In the End of IVF

It’s been almost a week since we got results. I’ve written this post several times and just haven’t quite been able to make it feel right. It’s been hard to write this post because I don’t feel the things I anticipated that I would feel. I didn’t want to write it in the heat of…

Transfer

The days leading up to transfer were crazy. There was a ton of back and forth on what the plan was and it was so frustrating not to know at all times what was going on with my embryos. Were they growing? How many were still left? The plan first changed right before retrieval, and…

Waiting Begins

There is a lot of waiting involved in fertility. This begins the waiting for IVF. The day after retrieval you get a call from the embryologist to tell you how many mature eggs you had and how many of those fertilized. I was a nervous wreck. This is the second huge hurdle and I hated…

Retrieval

If you’ve read my last post, you know we are about mid-way through IVF at this point of the story. Retrieval day came and I was anxious. This is the part I was  dreading, and not because you get put under, but because I was terrified there would be no good eggs. This was a…

IVF

It’s been a long and exhausting road trying to get pregnant these last few years. We’ve tried just about everything and have spent so much time focusing on having a family and frankly, we’re exhausted. I can’t do any more shots, any more doctor visits, any more blood work, and any more disappointment. It is time…

An Answer and a Whole Lot of Questions

We’re now on our 4th cycle at our new duty station and a lot has been happening. Back in November/December I did a new round of blood work and that has finally lead to an answer. It is somewhat relieving to have an answer after 2.5 years of questions, but the answer I received is…

That Thing I Said I’d Never Do Again

Remember that time I vowed I would never give myself injections to get pregnant ever again? About this same time last year we were exhausted. Tired of the constant doctor visits and medication. Everything was scheduled and we were not having any fun. The last I posted about our infertility journey we had just gone through…

Big Fat Positive?

Let me just start by saying that sometimes nature is an asshole. Sometimes, you are completely exhausted by something and decide to stop doing it on your own terms, but then nature has a plan of it’s own and it totally fucks shit up. If you read my last post you know we have decided to…

The Last Run

I realized I haven’t posted about treatment in a while, and well, I think I just haven’t had much to say. This month is our second IUI. The first IUI we had a lot of monitoring. There were ultrasounds once or twice a week at first, then once we got closer to ovulation it was every…

Thankful

I am feeling quite thankful tonight. Maybe it’s the high dose of baby making medication I’m on, but I can’t help myself. Infertility has been the biggest struggle I’ve ever had to deal with. When I first started writing in this blog, I was hesitant to open up about my struggle. But I can honestly say,…

Round 2 of Clomid

My second round on clomid was quite an eye-opening experience into military insurance. I filled my prescription after finally getting someone to pick up the phone at OB (to read about that click here). My doctor had upped my dosage from 50mg to 100mg. She did not check if my body reacted to the medication at…